I don't know about you, but I've been struggling with my mental health now for 13 years, and well in that time I've been pushed and thrown from doctor, to psychologist, to clinical psychologist ( aren't they same as a psychologist.. well um apparently not) then onto a psychiatrist and well quite frankly not one of them fucking listens to what I want!!!
I didn't come for a quick fix so please don't hand me a script for antidepressants or better yet Valium ( after meeting me once) and then send me on my way, don't make me feel like that's the only solution that you can offer and also don't think your better than me, because mate your not as a matter of fact I am, and I'm going to tell you why....... the reason why I'm better is because I used every bit of courage and self talk to get me here, I went out of my comfort zone to seek help because no one wants to live this way feeling like this forever, and also I was on time but i had to get myself together before coming into an overcrowded waiting room that makes me feel exposed , all eyes on me and no where to run if i need to #fightandflight and this is why again I am better than you.
I guess enough of bashing the help, but can you see why not only myself but others can feel this way, In my 13 years of battling this horrible disease #ihatethatword i have been given in excess of 50+ scripts for some drugs I can't ever pronounce, have i filled them nope because i believe there is another way a more natural way and through lot's of trial and error i have now found things that work for me, I'm by no means cured but i have of recent been having a lot more better days than i used to.
But just because I don't use medication i am by no means putting down those that need it, and this i know from a personal experience having a son on the spectrum. We all do what works for us, but sometimes do you think wouldn't it be great not to have to take these pills just so i can be social, or comfortable or even just to stop the self hate talk that we are all so guilty of..........
*Question if you could try one thing that you've always been to scared to try what would it be?
you can send this to me as an email or even in the forum, the choice is yours.
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