Not so long ago I logged of Facebook, it was like a drug to me before I knew it 1/2 hours could pass without me even noticing, it was however the detox that I needed when i logged off and deleted the app ( this however only lasted 2 months), due to uni re starting and everything being posted on the forums on there i had to re log on and with doing that this is where my mental health took a beating actually my whole self did.
I struggled to talk, to eat my anxiety was so high, scared i was going to miss some important piece of information, worrying how i was going to make it all work study plus placements plus my sons appointments being away for X amount of weeks, this was to much for me now unable to sleep this then took a toll on my health, my kids and of course my husband. I was a mess, unable to the leave the house, unable to take my son to school because again that crippling anxious feeling popped in to say hello, #notwelcomeatall i struggled to the point i thought it was time to check into a facility ( and trust me i was looking).
Yet life kept moving along days going by so quickly i couldn't keep up, yet i still hadn't left the house agoraphobia had kick in almost a week had pasted without me stepping foot out my front door, or having anyone coming to check if i was OK, still my only access to the outside world was social media, seeing what others were doing, writing, live recording and yet some of it actually gets completely under my skin,, some made me feel quite angry and that made me feel worse, so the time came again to pull the plug on social media and as the saying goes grab the bulls by the balls #thisgirlwasdoingjustthat.
My plan of attack come down to this i needed to take time for me, i needed to help myself to become the better version of myself not just for me but for my little ratbags and of course the big one, i needed to show my high functioning autistic son that no matter what we can pull our lives in the direction we want sometimes we hit little speed humps along the way but we choose what do. So i called uni and deferred 12 months WOW what an instant weight and lightness i felt after doing that, then it was deactivate Facebook again get rid of the app and set timers on my phone for locking down all other apps after a 2 hour total. That's the social media side done but what about myself and my well being now was time to work on me, so i set about trying meditation ( definitely thought it was a crock of shit) but to my surprise doing this twice daily sometimes more over a course of a week made some huge changes, trying to talk about things which sometimes doesn't come easily when we are feeling at our lowest. Everyday i continue to fight and look for ways to help and hopefully with sharing with those that read it may help you also.
I've added a link to a great article about social media and our mental health with some tips to help, https://thriveglobal.com/stories/the-ways-social-media-negatively-affects-your-mental-health/
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